Little Bits of Thought...

Well. My first post in my first blog. I have so many thoughts and feelings lately, I figured, this is the best time to start a blog. I have a feeling anything and everything will eventually be covered in here. But I'm just gonna start by being pretty blunt about how I feel...I refuse to not show my excitement about my baby being born. I guess people think that since I am young and I am having a baby unplanned, that I should just sit around and be upset and not know what to do about it. Yes of course I realize it will be hard. I am definitely not naive... having said that, I AM excited about this baby! It's my child, it's the child of the man I love... why would I not be excited? I know I have made many mistakes in my life, but I will never say this is/was a mistake. So yes, even though I am eighteen, I will not show regret. I will stay positive and keep on going on, doing the best I can.


One thing I have learned this weekend, that I've always known I guess but haven't always remembered, is that God is always with us. Always. I've felt so alone this weekend... prom was on Friday (which I could write a whole other post about) and that kind of sucked. I am so thankful for Wesleyan and them allowing me to graduate from there... and I understand me not being able to walk at graduation, and go to prom... I just have to be a big girl and get over it honestly. But of course, Friday I had a little pity party for myself. I almost had another little pity party last night too... I was crying, and then just prayed. I was driving and realized, "Sarah, God is right beside you. He loves you. He's all you need." Why is it so hard for me to realize that? Lately, I've grown a lot closer to Him. I don't know why it has taken me so long. He will be there continuously, right by my side, through financial worries, through worrying about the baby, through getting through nursing school. People will come and go, but He will always be there.

This was probably pretty long for a blog entry... I just have so much to say! :)